John, Kees, To, Olivia, josh, Enrica, her boyfriend, me and Elisabetta. Farewell drink in town for To and Kees
Yesterday I said goodbye to my new friends, To and Kees. They will be forever in my hearts as my first workaway buddies. I will know I will stay in touch. I can’t wait to here about their community and restaurant. They will for sure have the life they desire. Everyone here loved their energy and presence.
When I arrived and started to work it is interesting how quickly I saw my next home, even though I have not planted a plant yet. I. had a false sense that I can do this. That has worn off now. I have a lot to learn.
Yesterday and today between that early wake and last wake I had dreams. I remembered them both very well. It think because of the time in rest I had them. Both were about the past. The most painful part of my past. I do not need to write the dreams down. I remember them. The first morning I cried in anger. I thought I made peace with that. I thought I left that behind. To held me the first morning and said all the right things. If you ever meet a Dutch be prepared for the truth. They are very direct. This morning the dream was different but the same. I went for a walk and had my little cry. I found a rock to sit on in a beautiful shaded field and I listened to my podcast “Life Wisdom” By words of Taoism. I knew it would be about exactly what I was struggling with. It’s like going to church and feeling like the sermon was written just for you.
I came to the understand that I am physically further along then mentally. I also came to the conclusion that I need to just be here for know. Not writing about it. I will write when I really need to. I am really going to focus on just being present. I am going to start calling my friends and family that I have not talked with and call the ones I have more. I think I will be happier communicating that way for now. Peace and love to everyone!
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6 responses to “July 17th, Friday”
Hey baby, try to think of your past as a death that will always be with you, but every day until the next week until next month until the next year, it fades out, certain smells certain scenery , certain music Ect: will bring it right back to life, definitely keep your focus on the present, and when the ugly part of your pass pops back up instantly remove it by trying to remember the good parts of it.I love you so much babes and I’m so proud of you for making such a humongous change to reset your path, experience and learn new things, make some new forever friends.I know the memories you make and new skills you learn doing these work always will drowned out the bad. Keep your chin up. You are very loved by many , and I know that because you’re the best most loving,caring , awesomest person I know and I’m proud to call you, my friend/my sister from another mister huge hugs and kisses I love you now and I love you forever. I hardly ever check my email, but I will put it down here anyhow.😘🤗😘🤗😘🤗
Sending you love and light and everything that is so good and true.
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I can already hear the change in your “voice” . I am so proud of you, of your courage, of your kindness to all, of your openness to new experiences.
Sending you so much love! Your journey will take you with what to record and what to post.
Enjoy seeing your blogs especially the pictures.. I can tell you are happy and making new friends .. Not that I still don’t miss you but I’m happy that you are doing what is making you happy.. Love you Honey..